An end to addiction?

[gentry]

I didn't really realize what addiction meant until I got involved in this hobby. There's the heart pounding, the skin flushing, the coming close to booking and the telling yourself no. There's the exploration of all the beautiful pictures of girls with the phone sex operator, trying to decide who you're going to fuck and then finally going through with it, and then the dizzying high of actually being there in the session, with her huge enhanced tits bouncing in your face and the toe curdling mind bending orgasms.

Maybe for some of you it's not an addiction, but for me I'd say it definitely is. About a year ago I swore off the hobby altogether. It was ruining my relationships and draining my cash. But there's not a week that goes by that I don't wish I could dive back in.

So my question, dear readers, is whether it is worth it to stay clean? Can one ever really truly get over the addiction or will I be tormented for life?:frusty:

 

[Shades]

My name is Shades, and I am an addict.
I am addicted to quitting. I have quit many times. I like the feeling of control that it gives me, but eventually....I have to start hobbying again so I can get the rush of quitting....what a feeling

Seriously, if you have been "clean" (strange term you use, makes it sound all so dirty) for a year....keep going, re-visit the question after a second year.

 

[shakenbake]

Stay clean as long as you can. be the master of your wants and desires. You will be a better man for it.