You know, I posted about this sort of thing a few weeks back and the reply from some quarters was "do your research", which in my estimation is about as helpful as saying
don't eat cactus AFTER you've eaten a cactus.

I'm sorry you got fooled. Sometimes we want a thing to be real so badly that we allow ourselves to be blinded by it.
I don't do etransfers or deposits for EXACTLY this reason. My advice; look up some of the ladies that are reliable on here. There are some real gems. And don't be so hard on yourself, the fact you were scammed speaks more to the sacks of shit who scammed you than it does to you.