“I don’t need men, I need money.”

[Sonic Temple]

 

[xmontrealer]

I guess I’ll answer this question and address this therapy thing since many of you have advised me to seek therapy.

I appreciate everyone’s advice and looking out for my best interest. Yes I have considered therapy but I don’t know where to even begin in finding one and I don’t know where I think the problem or problems are. I think I am subconsciously confused.

I can tell you when I started seeing sex workers as a hobby for the first time which was 8 years ago, it was amazingly fun. I first started off having standard sessions with MPAs, then strippers and finally escorts.

In the beginning, I really loved the concept of getting to see undeniably attractive women and I don’t even need to be in a relationship with them or take them on dates. All I needed to do was work, save money and pay for their services. That’s it. They don’t even need to like me. I don’t need to dress my best or have an attractive personality. It was awesome.

As years went by, they were a few women in this industry who stood out to me that I would loved to gotten to know off the clock. I would text an ex-regular unrelated to booking her about dogs, books and music. That is what made me value developing relationships with women. Then there was this revelation to me that sex workers do in fact date outside of their work. Providers in my sessions with me would tell me that they’re dating a guy or in a relationship with a guy and I started to feel interior to them; They figured out a way to be in a relationship and attract this provider that I desire without paying her. Their man gets to receive back text messages from her about anything. I will only get a text message back if I am trying to book an appointment with her. I’m only a dollar sign…and the men they are dating are somebody that’s actually meaningful to them. Those men are in a position that I have been wishing to be in for many years and I would have to pay their girlfriend to be with me for 30 minutes make up for the inadequacies and incapabilities of genuinely attracting them.

To find a therapist in Toronto, or elsewhere for that matter, Google "find psychotherapists in (name of city)". Then google the reviews of any particular therapist who seems appropriate, to see if they may be a good fit.

 

[Ceiling Cat]

She said she does not like being ogled, but her business is to be ogled. Maybe she does not like it when men can get the milk for free without buying the cow.

This reminds me of when I was in my mid 20s and I went to buy a car. The sales woman was dressed like she was going to a party. Sexy tube top, skirt, high heels, jewelry, make-up, hair done up. This was in mid winter on a very cold day. At that point I was just shopping for price, she insisted that I take a test drive with her. I agreed, maybe this was a way to see how much control she had over me. On the way out of the dealership she pointed out an expensive coupe that the dealership gave her to use. I think it was a reward for good sales. When we got back to the dealership she gave me a price that was full retail price. The whole time we were seated face to face in full view without a desk between us. I could see the top of her tits and she crossed her legs and laces her fingers on her knee to give me a show. I told her I would get back to her on this. Then she said the most incredible thing. She said: " Oh, is that how you think you will get out of here, do you think you will get the car for free"! I got sarcastic and said: " Free? Do you think that would be possible? That would be nice. She knew I was not going to get hooked. She joked and laughed and I left the dealership. The ogle is free, don't make me pay for it. Maybe a lot of guys have succumbed to her charms, I have super powers.

 

[Mister pantstent]

The OP is pretty alone in what he finds attractive, and hell, I don't use his dick to fuck so I don't care.

Personally, these contrived women are exactly that. You spend so much to be inauthentic how could you possibly be remotely genuine. I think natural curves and aging is beautiful.

OP, good luck on having your desires fulfilled. I have only one question. Once you have one of these ladies on your arm and learn that beyond how they look, the chemistry is not there, then what? What's left once the shine comes off?

 

[richaceg]

If you want that type of lady, how do you think she will maintain that look? That's a very expensive look and that's not for one person, that's for the biggest fish she can sink her hooks in....now ask yourself, in the vast ocean, are you gonna be the biggest fish?

 

[xix]

“I don’t need men, I need money.”

In order to have money, you need someone to give the money to you, if you don't want to work then death will call.
If you are working as an SP yes you need money in which that leads to you needing a person to pay you. Or any regular workplace.

But also this line can mean....

I don't need a men to take care of me personally, emotionally, plus other things. I need money, I need clients to come to me to pay me for my service. It is simple and leave me afterwards, If I want someone I will pick someone who is not my client and have my way with him/her. I want to be alone forever, Yes I know I have issues, but I do not care for it I try to ignore it ) nor do I want to fix, heal, repair myself. I love my pain since I don't have one.

 

[Valcazar]

Good song.

 

[Tashki]

I just wanted to give an update. I went for therapy. I wanted to thank those who seriously looked out for my best interest. I appreciate it and it means a lot.

 

[xmontrealer]

I just wanted to give an update. I went for therapy. I wanted to thank those who seriously looked out for my best interest. I appreciate it and it means a lot.

Nothing so deep changes overnight, whether it's sex addiction, unhealthy nature of romantic relationships, weight loss, smoking addiction, gambling addictions, etc.

I hope you'll continue your therapy until your issues are fully resolved.

Best wishes!

 

[Tashki]

I hope you'll continue your therapy until your issues are fully resolved.

Best wishes!

I will. I have another session booked next month.

 

[Muchadoaboutnothing]

I will. I have another session booked next month.

theres also sex addicts annonymous groups for you and anyone here who could benefit from group therapy and it’s free