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kat19 said:
sheik,
lol....that sems pretty reasonable, $5 a song.
i don't want to go my my friends with everything becasuse there is stuff i don't want them to know, plus i don't want people to see me as weak. i finally did open up to my parents with alot of it and i think they just don't know what they can do to help. they agreed i should seek some sort of conselling.
Kat, nobody that seeks help is weak, they are never weak so take that thought out of your mind and throw it away, it serves no purpose.
I thought for too many years that I could sort out my 'stuff' and my emotions as well cause I was a strong person that could deal with anything that was thrown my way in this lifetime. And I thought I was doing a pretty good job at it until 7 years later I woke up one day and all that stuff and emotions went into attack mode that I needed to bring myself to an ER because I had no idea what the hell was happening to me but I thought and felt like I was losing my mind and it was terrifing.
That's when I realized that I couldn't do this on my own and I needed someone to help guide me through all the things (past and present) that I was going through.
The 2nd best decision I ever made in my life was seeking help and taking the advice of the head psychologist at the hospital, so for the last year I have been seeing a psychotherapist (they are the only medical doctors that use CBT as treatment) it's been a tough year and I still have much work to do but once you get on that path your half-way there.
I won't say ATM what the 1st best decision I ever made in my life was because it was the biggest selfless act I have ever done. Although it's left a huge void in my heart and soul that I know will never be filled but I knew that I had to do this regardless of the cross I bare on my back everyday.
Again, if you want to talk, feel free to PM me.
Annessa
xoxo