I don't say 'destroy' with the usual connotation. It could be a good thing in this case, I dunno. The point is that this isn't a 'hobby' for me. It's a lifestyle. The variety of women I've seen and the variety of services I've obtained has destroyed my ability to settle down. I don't think I can ever stick with one woman again (at least not without cheating.... often).
It's like living in two worlds. By day I work, by night I'm my own pornstar.
I was in LA last week and had appointments with a bombass Mexican honey. It started with one appointment but I was hooked on her ever since. Yet now I can hardly remember what she looks like. I just remember that she was cute as hell. Another cute face that I'll never see again. It'll be the same thing next month.
As an aside, I now know that I prefer `hobbying` in other cities because that way you just get lost in the shuffle. I love the anonymity of it and the unfamliarity and novelty of the surroundings.
How far does the rabbit hole go? Have any of you done this year after year and made it an intergal part of your life? Of those who have, how many of you are married or unmarried?
I couldn`t get a girlfriend and become a swinger. I simply can`t relate to people for long durations of time anymore. I usually want to be alone, and when I want company I want an SP - somebody who I know little of anything about. I relish the little head games that they play: pretending they love you, pretending they don`t have a boyfriend and want you to be him, wanting you to be their sugar daddy for life even though that`s simply out of the question, the bait-and-switches, the YMMV ridiculousness. All this from women who are complete strangers. It`s a bit of pseudo-relationship drama but without an actual relationship. I get a kick out of the psychology of it all and knowing that some of the younger ones will one day be doctors, teachers, lawyers, and even mothers.
This is the Xmas season but the thought of celebrating with relatives and friends (both have dwindled to near nothing) is now an alien and foreign concept to me. My entire life revolves around 1) work 2) getting off with strange women. I sit here all alone watching the festivities and want no part of it yet I`m delighted that it brings so much joy to everybody else. What a wonderful world we live in.
It seems to me that the `destruction`of my `normal`life as a result of `hobbying` has actually been a positive force in my life.
Is there anybody else out there that has concluded that this hobbying lifestyle is their destiny? Does anybody else understand where I`m coming from?
Under the circumstances - being alone in my home - I should probably be scared, sad, or angry. But I`m the opposite. I`m filled with glee. I`ll be visiting a relative on Xmas day but after that it`s back to what I know best.
It's like living in two worlds. By day I work, by night I'm my own pornstar.
I was in LA last week and had appointments with a bombass Mexican honey. It started with one appointment but I was hooked on her ever since. Yet now I can hardly remember what she looks like. I just remember that she was cute as hell. Another cute face that I'll never see again. It'll be the same thing next month.
As an aside, I now know that I prefer `hobbying` in other cities because that way you just get lost in the shuffle. I love the anonymity of it and the unfamliarity and novelty of the surroundings.
How far does the rabbit hole go? Have any of you done this year after year and made it an intergal part of your life? Of those who have, how many of you are married or unmarried?
I couldn`t get a girlfriend and become a swinger. I simply can`t relate to people for long durations of time anymore. I usually want to be alone, and when I want company I want an SP - somebody who I know little of anything about. I relish the little head games that they play: pretending they love you, pretending they don`t have a boyfriend and want you to be him, wanting you to be their sugar daddy for life even though that`s simply out of the question, the bait-and-switches, the YMMV ridiculousness. All this from women who are complete strangers. It`s a bit of pseudo-relationship drama but without an actual relationship. I get a kick out of the psychology of it all and knowing that some of the younger ones will one day be doctors, teachers, lawyers, and even mothers.
This is the Xmas season but the thought of celebrating with relatives and friends (both have dwindled to near nothing) is now an alien and foreign concept to me. My entire life revolves around 1) work 2) getting off with strange women. I sit here all alone watching the festivities and want no part of it yet I`m delighted that it brings so much joy to everybody else. What a wonderful world we live in.
It seems to me that the `destruction`of my `normal`life as a result of `hobbying` has actually been a positive force in my life.
Is there anybody else out there that has concluded that this hobbying lifestyle is their destiny? Does anybody else understand where I`m coming from?
Under the circumstances - being alone in my home - I should probably be scared, sad, or angry. But I`m the opposite. I`m filled with glee. I`ll be visiting a relative on Xmas day but after that it`s back to what I know best.
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