Wet_suit, what do you really want? In terms of responses here?
Doesn't matter what people say, you'll come up with a response as to why suicide is better. I don't agree with everything that Fuji says, but I do share the point if view that if you want to see suicide as the best option; guess what, you'll see suicide as the best option regardless of what people say. I'm not giving you the moralistic speech of 'looking at the bright side of things'. I'm saying that as long as you focus on that as your only option, that will be your only option.
And don't try to rationalize everything. I'm saying that because I have the same tendency as you, I'm more of a pessimistic who tries to cope with things by rationalizing them. Having a rational discussion about suicide here is not possible. You'll get either moralistic advice, or subject views from people who in one way or another have dealt with that.
How can expect anyone to say that death has advantages, if the one who've been there aren't here to tell? There's no way you can know if it's better or worse than life? You can't, and no one else here can.
What I'm trying to say is, work with the information and resources you do know and have access to. What else is there to work with? When I go through very difficult situations, I have to wake myself up and stop thinking 'what if', or 'I wish that'. And use what I have at hand to move one step after the other. What else is there to do anyways? If there was guarantee that dying would take me to a better place, I would consider it, but guess what, I have no clue.
I dont know you, but I can tell you're smart and funny. Again, it's not the whole 'you're amazing, you have so much to live for' speech. It's just an observation from what I'd guess are traits of your personality. When I went through hard times and considered the same you consider, I did changes in a way to use what I had to offer in a different job. I changed environments in a way to meet friends who are more suitable with my personality and what I have to offer. Even changing cities helped me too, the vibe is different. I looked at what I had and what I could do with it.
I'd guess that if you have the tendency to think about suicide, it would never completely go away as another poster mentioned. But there might be ways to feel differently for the most part.
Sorry if it's another subject view and not a rational discussion of wether death is good or not. With no empirical evidence on the matter, i think it's the most we can offer you here...