Hey guys!
Overthinker's post incoming - read at your own peril!
When Caeser was ordered to disband his army and return to Rome where the political machinations of his foes awaited, he instead turned south and marched on Rome. He paused and reflected before crossing the Rubicon. “Even yet we may draw back; but once let us pass this little bridge, and nothing is left but to fight it out with arms.”
Those who enter this world and probably faced with a similar dilemma. It may be a small step/interaction but it can stay with you for a very long time/forever and alter things in your life. Once it is attempted, it is done - "Alea iacta est" (The die is cast).
Why did you get into this? Has this changed the way you view yourself and connect with yourself?
To put this in perspective, this isn't about the lovely ladies or the business/act of escorting (takes a lot of fortitude and courage), but about your perception of yourself - having paid to win the momentary affection of someone you place value in as "special" (attractive + all the other stories/expectations that you've built up around it) and subsequent question around self worth - that you've reached a point in life where you are making a decision like this for whatever reasons just/unjust. It may go against your belief set/conditioning that you've held so far, much like Caeser. Maybe you realized the previously held set of views were limited and the this experience expanded that? I understand the responses may be biased towards those who continue hobbying (ergo are active on the forum vs someone who did it once and left forever). I'm interested in responses of how this changed you and the impact it has had.
Overthinker's post incoming - read at your own peril!
When Caeser was ordered to disband his army and return to Rome where the political machinations of his foes awaited, he instead turned south and marched on Rome. He paused and reflected before crossing the Rubicon. “Even yet we may draw back; but once let us pass this little bridge, and nothing is left but to fight it out with arms.”
Those who enter this world and probably faced with a similar dilemma. It may be a small step/interaction but it can stay with you for a very long time/forever and alter things in your life. Once it is attempted, it is done - "Alea iacta est" (The die is cast).
Why did you get into this? Has this changed the way you view yourself and connect with yourself?
To put this in perspective, this isn't about the lovely ladies or the business/act of escorting (takes a lot of fortitude and courage), but about your perception of yourself - having paid to win the momentary affection of someone you place value in as "special" (attractive + all the other stories/expectations that you've built up around it) and subsequent question around self worth - that you've reached a point in life where you are making a decision like this for whatever reasons just/unjust. It may go against your belief set/conditioning that you've held so far, much like Caeser. Maybe you realized the previously held set of views were limited and the this experience expanded that? I understand the responses may be biased towards those who continue hobbying (ergo are active on the forum vs someone who did it once and left forever). I'm interested in responses of how this changed you and the impact it has had.
