Has any of you ever had great regret of starting this whole hobbying thing that we do?
The more I hobby, the more disappointing it gets and the more it affects me negatively. The only thing is that I don't believe I can stop as I am addicted to the idea of having any girl I want whenever I want, within a few hours of contacting her - it's like the feeling of ordering food delivery x 1000.
So I just have kind of accepted it as one of my weaknesses. After my first visit with an sp, I was so happy, but since then I have found my experiences, in hindsight at least (during and immediately after I am always happy) to be less and less pleasureable for so many reasons. Also, I have found that all FS feels the same no matter how hot the gir is. One thing that keeps me doing this is the fact that I don't have a woman in my life right now, and I do always enjoy the company of the opposite sex - it's much different than hanging around guys. I mean, I am married, but my wife is out of country, she doesn't want to return, and many of the woman I have know from my past have moved on to other relationships and are no longer available. Plus, if I try to start a relationship in civiain life, it is so time-consuming and often the girl wants more of a commitment than I can offer - it always ends bad. So, I feel I am going to keep going back to hobbying even though I know I shouldn't.
Don't get me wrong, I think sp's are amazing woman, it's just that they can only offer one thing and after a while it loses it's appeal if that's all that is available.
The more I hobby, the more disappointing it gets and the more it affects me negatively. The only thing is that I don't believe I can stop as I am addicted to the idea of having any girl I want whenever I want, within a few hours of contacting her - it's like the feeling of ordering food delivery x 1000.
So I just have kind of accepted it as one of my weaknesses. After my first visit with an sp, I was so happy, but since then I have found my experiences, in hindsight at least (during and immediately after I am always happy) to be less and less pleasureable for so many reasons. Also, I have found that all FS feels the same no matter how hot the gir is. One thing that keeps me doing this is the fact that I don't have a woman in my life right now, and I do always enjoy the company of the opposite sex - it's much different than hanging around guys. I mean, I am married, but my wife is out of country, she doesn't want to return, and many of the woman I have know from my past have moved on to other relationships and are no longer available. Plus, if I try to start a relationship in civiain life, it is so time-consuming and often the girl wants more of a commitment than I can offer - it always ends bad. So, I feel I am going to keep going back to hobbying even though I know I shouldn't.
Don't get me wrong, I think sp's are amazing woman, it's just that they can only offer one thing and after a while it loses it's appeal if that's all that is available.